“The father instantly cried out, ‘I believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!’” (Mark 9:24 NLT)
One tale I share about myself happened during a very sad time in the life of our family. Our daughter, Nealy, had a miscarriage and after several days of hoping this brief life would make it, she lost the baby. With modern technology, we could observe the entire process. It was grueling to see this precious life slip away. This was a very sad time. As I was packing to go to Indiana, I prayed. Sobbing, I asked God to keep his hand on my daughter’s family and then I said something that made me stop and almost laugh. “Take care of them until I get there”, I said. Mind you, I was talking to the creator of everything. Of course, I did not exactly mean that, but sometimes, as a mom and as a Christian, I act like if I could only get an opportunity, “I” could fix everything.
I must be a slow learner because over and over I realize that there is truly little I can do in my strength, and little that I can solve in the lives of my kids and grandkids or anyone else. In my humanness, I lack the power to even protect them from the bumps and bruises of this world. The only power I possess is through Christ, who strengthens me as well as those for whom I pray.
But how many nights have I tossed and turned worrying, only to find that worry had changed nothing? It is only when I lift them to the throne that He can do more than I could ask or think. When all seems lost, He can give them hope. They face a world that He can strengthen. He can heal body, mind and relationships. He loves them even more than I do.
If I live to be a hundred, I will always have to fight the temptation to be the “Big Mama”, but I am so glad that I have a Father in heaven who looks down on me with love and tells me step aside “Big Mama” “it is for this child I died and there is no problem too big for me to solve.” With a grateful heart, I put them in his excellent hands once again, trusting that He is a Big God who promises that nothing is impossible with him.
In the bible is an account of a father who was much like me and tried to do everything on his own. His son had an evil spirit that was trying to destroy him by throwing him into the fire or into water to kill him and his father, after trying to do everything on his own, came to Jesus and said, “If you can do anything, take pity on us and help us”. I can just hear the frustration in Jesus’ voice when he said, “If I can? “If I can?” Then said, “Everything is possible for him who believes.” The father at that said with renewed strength, “I do believe; Help me overcome my unbelief”! So when his son was healed, this Big Daddy realized that only “HeCan!” If we only believe in Him, everything is possible!
Lord, help this Big Mama to overcome my unbelief, in your precious name.
jeanie@answers2prayer.org
But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31