Then My daughter was leafing through some old photo albums the other day
when she laughed and pulled out an old picture to show me. There I was a
skinny 12 year old with thick, bushy, brown hair. I looked down at the
picture and smiled. Only one thought was on my mind: "If only I knew
then what I know now."
If I knew then what I know now: I would
have slept in less and watched the sunrise more. I would have went
barefoot in the grass earlier in the Spring and later in the Fall. I
would have eaten Nana's Sunday dinners more slowly, savoring every bite.
I would have read more books and watched less TV. I would have played
fetch with my dog every time he wanted to. I would have paid less
attention to how I looked and more attention to how I treated those
around me.
If I knew then what I know now: I would have hugged my
Mom and Nana everyday and told them how much I loved them. I would have
listened better when my Dad told me stories of his youth. I would have
argued less with my brothers. I would have been kinder to that little
girl in school who liked me so much. I would have rejoiced in the joys
of each new day and not worried about the problems of tomorrow.
If I knew then what I know now: I would have danced more, laughed more,
and sang more no matter who was watching. I would have not cared a bit
what other people thought of me. I would have cared a whole lot more,
however, about what God thought of me. I would have been fearless in
showing my love, sharing my joy, and living my life.
Sadly, I
didn't know then what I know now. None of us do. All we can do is
continue to learn, to grow, and to love. All we can do is make our
future better than our past. All we can do is our best and hope it makes
God and the angels smile.