It was 5pm Easter Sunday 2011. The phone rang. It was the hospital
where I had just been with my husband in the Emergency Ward. My
husband's heart was failing and the doctors offered little hope. For
most of the time they asked me to wait in the Family Room but relayed to
me that my husband said over and over to tell me that he loved me. When
my husband seemed somewhat stabilized, I came home to feed my pets
before planning to return to the hospital. The phone call came as I was
just resting in God's promise to me, given several years earlier.
It was 1998. I was on my way to my weekly Bible study and talking to
God about my husband who had accepted Jesus almost 20 years previously.
However there were areas of his life not given over to God. This had
caused many problems for us leaving me feeling extremely discouraged and
particularly so that morning. I walked into the room where the Bible
Study was to take place. Suddenly my eyes were drawn to a banner on the
wall. It seemed as if the letters on it lit up and glistened. They read
HE IS FAITHFUL. The Bible Study began and as always was precluded by a
worship song. The song the leader chose was, "Great is They
Faithfulness." After the song, prayer was given for marriages and
husbands. I was awed and encouraged and eagerly anticipated the
fulfillment of my promise. I expected it to happen right away. Instead
things became worse. Yet God continually encouraged me especially on
days when I just wanted to give up. Scriptures about God's faithfulness
or songs about God's promises would flood my mind and encourage me to
hang on and wait for the promise to be fulfilled.
My husband had
been a diabetic for many years and his health really began to
deteriorate from 2005 on. In 2010 he was in the Emergency Room a few
times, barely hanging onto life during one of them. Each time he
recovered as I was always confident that he would.
It was Easter
Sunday 2011. My husband had been rushed by ambulance to the Emergency
Ward in the early afternoon. At about 4pm I was sitting alone in the
Family Room when suddenly I felt a tremendous burst of peace envelope
me. At the same time I heard so clearly that God had fulfilled the
promise to me regarding my husband. I was filled with joy and
excitement. This was the day I had been waiting for. My husband would
recover just like all the other times, be home soon, and we could
progress forward with God's plans for our lives.
Now at 5pm, I
answered the phone and the nurse at the other end at the hospital asked
me to come back there right away. She said things were not looking good
for my husband. I asked God for a word of encouragement and opened my
Bible randomly. It opened to Matthew 5:4 "Blessed are they that mourn;
for they shall be comforted." I was perplexed and did not know what to
make of this. I returned to the hospital and went in to see my husband.
"He's gone," the staff told me. "We're sorry."
I went home dazed
and shocked. The phone rang again. It was a friend's daughter. She said
"God did not lie to you. He has fulfilled the promise that He gave and
He will explain more in the days to come." As I prayed I felt that this
was true, and I looked to the Holy Spirit for comfort, but still felt a
great depth of disappointment in how events had unfolded.
One day
in the late spring of 2012 I went with a friend to a spot not far from
me, where a beautiful ocean inlet meets a lovely park. I had been there
many times just enjoying the ocean breezes, assorted flowers and various
wildlife including the Canada Geese. Many people complained about the
geese, but I enjoyed them, especially when it was "nursery time." I loved seeing the little yellow balls of fluff follow their parents
everywhere into their brand new world. What fun it was watching them
tread along little patchwork type trails, filled with so many new
delights of little flowers buzzing with bees, and shafts of new grass
intertwined amongst soft mud slides for them to run and play.
On
this day I packed two beach chairs with me and I sat on a blue one while
my friend sat on a red one, which used to be the one my husband sat on.
We had just sat down when feelings of great sadness poured over me. I
began to wish that God's "faithful promise" had come to pass the way I
expected and instead of my friend sitting there, it would have been my
husband.
Suddenly I saw several pairs of webbed feet come out of
the water below and head towards me. There were parents and baby geese.
They came to my side and all looked at me intently over and over again.
Then they sat down on the ground beside me. I enjoyed them all
afternoon. About 3 hours later my friend and I stood up and began to
pack up our chairs. The geese then got up and waddled back into the
water. On further trips to that place, I found that the geese had gone.
I saw very few of them again the rest of the year. I thanked God for
that day for I know He had brought the geese to comfort me.
One
day in Eternity I will see the complete fulfillment of the Promise. In
the meantime I rest in God's comfort and know also how very Great is His
Faithfulness!
Shirley Katz