In the same way let your light shine before others, that they may see
your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:16
Three weeks after the devastating tornado ripped through Goderich
Ontario, I took a walk through the damaged area. One particular scene
stayed riveted in my mind: the United Church. This once magnificent
historic edifice was now irreparably damaged. Demolition had begun,
leaving the inside fully exposed to the elements - and to outside view.
I saw the bright sunlight shine down on the balcony pews causing their
reddish brown hues to glow beautifully against the backdrop of the
broken-up walls. Seeing such radiant splendor in wood is a rare
occurrence. Normally we protect our fine wood from the outside elements;
but that shields us from their fullest potential for beauty.
While gazing up towards those naked pews that day, a disturbing feeling
of exposure arose within me. Those pews emanated to me a sense of utter
helplessness and vulnerability with no way to hide from the ravages of
the elements. To be sure, we humans expend much of our lives avoiding
such transparent exposure. We resist becoming uncovered and naked -
vulnerable to elements over which we have no power.
Seeing the
broken-up church building reminded me that so little of the true Light
of God can shine through us, his people, when we are hidden behind our
self-constructed walls. I don't mean merely our edifices. We have a
natural tendency to construct all kinds of exteriors - so that others
can't see us in our weaknesses, fears, and our emptiness. We don't want
to be exposed in our vulnerability and our smallness. Really, we are
merely hiding from ourselves and from God - just like Adam and Eve who,
after they turned their backs on God, instinctively grabbed fig leaves
as they dashed for cover.
The outside world cannot see what goes
on inside our church buildings - unless, that is, the roof blows
off... somehow. And that's just the way God works in the lives of his
people. It may feel like a tornado touching down and leaving us feeling
frightfully exposed to the elements. Perhaps we experience failure,
rejection, or in some way the unmasking of our facades. Our flaws are
painfully exposed. We feel anxiety and fear, because now there is
nowhere to hide. Yet in this exposed and vulnerable condition, we find
God's invitation to receive his Light - his merciful love through
Christ. It is his better cover for us - a cover that is transparent and
flexible.
That day, as I looked at the damaged church, another
marvel caught my attention: Some of the stain glass windows were still
intact and I could see sunlight shine through them. We don't normally
see stain glass windows like that - not from the outside. Even at
nighttime, any light shining through them is merely artificial light -
never the sun's full splendor. But that day, oh, how brightly they
shone! And with such vibrant colors!
PRAYER: Lord, in the trials
and testings of our lives may we have courage to be exposed in
truthfulness before you. May we become wholeheartedly receptive to you,
so that the Light of your love can radiate in the rubble of our
brokenness, just like those pews and windows radiated with the sun's
radiance.
Diane Eaton
Kincardine, Ontario, Canada