My Shepherd

by | May 21, 2006 | Guidance, Purpose

I know now through the Psalms that I am His. He has raised me, and loved me through all my ailments and heartaches. He is the one.

I am talking about my Jesus. He is truly my Shepherd.

In 1997 I suffered a trauma to my head in a county office. I lost hearing in my left ear have spinal pain and have floaters before my eyes as a result. Funny how in the face of tragedies like this, we lose our friends and our family…how afraid they are to be depended on. But let me tell you this, God was there for me every step of the way. There was not one night where in prayer, I did not feel His comforting arms. I cried, because of the pain, yet I felt this unmistakable strength that I was drawing from talking to Him.

In 2003 I had multiple strokes. To be able to walk and speak again is in itself a miracle; but to be able to minister to others who did not have the chance to regain their normalcy is a wonder to me.

In 2006 I developed a lump in my throat that made it difficult to breathe, speak or even eat. The lump grew and I gradually started choking on food coughing hard just to dislodge the permanent lump that had settled in my throat. Coupled with this I had spinal pain so painful like I cannot believe. I knew I was going to die. I avoided people and stayed offline. It was also during this time that a bunch of gossips raced their tongues with all kinds of hurtful talk and accusations (He maketh me to lie down in green pastures-)My blood pressure soared together with the pain. My medications countered each other. The medication for breathing made my blood pressure go up and vice versa. One day in my sadness, I wrote Answers to Prayer. Rob said “Hang in there my friend. We are praying. “He said this each time, and although my body grew weaker and weaker my hope grew and my faith became stronger. I said to God one night while I couldn’t breathe, I know you are there and I know you love me come with me now to the emergency room. I hopped in the car my clothes all drenched with sweat while I struggled to get to the hospital which was just a couple of miles down our street. I survived. (Yea though I walk through the valley) I am still here and am finally well. (He restores my soul…) Thanks to the prayers of the wonderful volunteers, Rob and Lynn and their little children.

Not only did I get well, but God gave me a car. (I shall not want) I won it in a raffle. I was at a dealership with my sister when a man walked up to us and said “I want you to win.” With that he inserted a FREE raffle ticket in my hand. At first I refused. But something in my head said, “never refuse a blessing.” I looked around to thank him but he was gone. When they called out the numbers, they called my number first. What a wonderful God we serve.

Last week, I was offered to be a partner in a registry business. I could not believe it. I am still pinching myself to see if I am awake but the bible has something to say on this and everything that has happened to me one can find in Psalms 23. He is my Shepherd….His rod and staff comforted me in my most troubled days…and I know I will dwell in the house of my Lord forever…

Someday I pray that I may be able to afford to start a home for homeless single moms. Those that have kids. The home will clean them, clothe them, feed them and train them; hopefully get them jobs and a decent life. I am all on fire for this but don’t know how to go about it…but then I know God does and He will lead me and show me His way…God bless Love in Jesus



My Shepherd