How God Removes our Insecurities
I sat in the passenger's seat as my friend and
I headed to the mall. "Freedom," she said, "kids in school, finally a little
peace."
I knew what she meant. As a blind mom of three
little active boys, my job changed during the fall. No more summer days
sprinkled with, I'm-bored-Mom moments.
Had I made a difference?
Decades flew by and now looking back I wonder if
there's anything I had done in those days that made a difference, taught
them something worthwhile or left memories in their hearts.
Looking at my sons, now with their own families,
I asked, "Hey guys, do you remember the notes I used to tape to your
pillows?"
"I think I might still have some of them, mom,"
my oldest son said.
"I remember the notes you'd put in our lunch
boxes," my middle son said. "I almost ate one of them by accident."
I grinned. But secretly, I hoped they erased
memories of moments when their Mom wasn't so nice. Sometimes, I threw my
hands up in the air and, in utter frustration, I ordered. "Okay, the three
of you, in your room, and don't come out until you know how to behave."
It was nothing extraordinary. But even in those
days of discipline, God prompted me to spend a few seconds jotting simple
words on a piece of paper. I stuffed them in their lunch boxes or taped them
to their pillow.
Nothing extraordinary in that gesture. Only a
simple way for them to know they were loved no matter where they were.
Although my love was genuine, my job as a mom
seemed overwhelming at times. I questioned my abilities, doubted my
decisions and feared my inadequacies to do enough for them.
But in that season of my insecurities, God was
busy watching, listening and with the pen of His love, He was writing notes
to me. The note in Psalm 23 was written to carry me through my days.
God reminded me: He was my shepherd, I lacked
nothing to make me the Mom He wanted me to be.
As I sent my three little guys to school, God
made me lie down in the green pastures of reassurance that they would be
safe from all harm.
He led me beside the quiet waters of peace
knowing His hand covered them. Drained after a long day of chores--of
cooking, cleaning the kitchen, folding laundry and picking up toys, He
restored my soul.
And when I wondered on the path of worry, He
guided me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
When tragedies, conflict and violence filled the
news, the shadow of gloom came over me. But though I was tempted to walk in
the shadow of worry, I declared I would fear no evil for God would be with
me and my children. His rod and His staff would comfort me.
And while preparing meals for the family, God
reminded me that He prepared a table before me in the presence of my enemies
called worry, doubt, anxiety or guilt.
God anointed my sons' heads with the oil of
purity and faith; Their cup would overflow. Surely goodness and love would
follow me and my children all the days of our lives and we would dwell in
the house of the LORD forever.
God's note left on the pillow of our hearts
carries the truth of His Word, the strength of His promise, and the
guarantee they will come to be.
Let's Pray: Father, thank you for lifting from my
heart feelings of guilt, insecurity and blame. I praise You for filling my
days with peace, reassurance and trust in Your promises. In Jesus' name,
amen.
What are God's notes telling you today?
Janet Eckles
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